All the time!
I just don’t get it.
Youre so confusing. Just be honest. I think it sucks that everyone stops you from making decisions. You base youre decisions off what other people think. It sucks. No natter what medication I take, nothing can stop me from feeling a broken heart. I miss you and I love you. I do. And after this last week I have to remind myself of why I do. You were going to give someone so undeserving of a second or third chance, a third chance. I was everything you wanted. But you want nothing to do with me. I just don’t get what you want anymore. I don’t understand and it kills me. You kill me.
Talking To The Moon.
A lot of things have happened to me in the last couple of months. After being diagnosed with severe depression disorder, having to take anti depressants and ambien to help me sleep at night, I can’t help but thing I’m completely too far gone and have lost it. Music has been my main source of trying to get over obstacles that I’ve faced. Its hard to believe what happened, has happened, and yet Its sstill hard for me to comprehend what’s real and what isn’t. Kinda. I write and write and write. Hoping things will come back to me. Maybe one day realizing that it wasn’t me. How can I let it happen the way it did. Still trying to figure things out. Whether who I miss who I don’t. Times are mad and crazy.. It just wasn’t fair. I know you’re somewhere out there, far, far, away.
Ooh These Times Are Hard…
Yeah, they’re making us crazy, don’t give up on me baby…
We’re smiling but were almost to tears, even after all these years, ‘cause we’ve just now got the feeling like we’re meeting, for the first time.
Yeahhh p90x stuff… again.
So its my third day and im realllly feeling it. Tomorrow is yoga x. Whoo! Today while doing our workout we had no dvd. So we went by the book. This whole workout thing is awesome, because after our 1hour of hurting and pulling we went out for a run. WE meaning my buddy Justin who is doing this with me for support which I do appreciate. So we will see how tomorrow’s yoga goes. In cardio x we had a preview of that andddddd it is very awesome.
p90x adventures
I will try to update this as often as possible considering I dont know anyone who would actually read this haha. Im not very good at writing blogs so give me a chance. Today was my second day at working on the lean workout of p90x. My whole body is sore and it feels so great. I am starting a whole new regiment where I dont drink any soday or anything but water, vitamin water and Gatorade on my good days. My goal is to lose 30 pounds in there months. We will see.
